Seasonal Salon

Spring Equinox Personal Ritual 2019

I do not take lightly the privilege that comes with a resourced life and the luxury of working on myself consciously. Tonight’s ritual will be one of gratitude for all I am learning and all that is my life; recovery, good work, priestessing ritual and sacred partnership. Oh, and gardening, creating art and community.
And did I mention working with the shadow side of myself?

Isn’t it just like the Goddess to send me a treat tonight? A passionate Spring conversation between an owl and another creature in the woods, one I’ve never heard before. I am delighted.

As I set up, the owl flies to perch only ten feet away from me. I am stopped in a moment of captivating stillness. Thank you Goddess for your presence tonight.

The air is tranquil for a few minutes then whimsically wild with wind. It fits the content of my ritual perfectly. It fits.

Tonight the altar contains my 12 step workbook, my cell phone tuned to my podcast app., a candle I decorated for Spring Equinox, a new basil plant, a picture of my community at a recent dinner party, and a picture of me as a three year old.

There is Air, Fire, Water and Earth. There is Spirit.

I center myself with breath, which takes a while as my mind is full of thoughts and my body full of emotions. They conflict. Of course, ambivalence is a constant companion lately. Focusing on my breath, I know eventually it will connect me to myself and The Mother, and bring me present.

My invocation: Goddess, I invite you here to this ritual. You who guides me in this journey, giver of life and death, finder of all that has been lost or hidden. I call you to ritual tonight, to witness my gratitude and my truth. May you hear the praises coming from my true self and my soul. May you experience the love I have for you as we co-create. May you hear my need.

I light the candle in the center. One by one I focus on the Elements drawing all four in. I feel the container building around me, familiar and safe. I know it will provide a space of magic and hope. Grounding myself further is easier now. I greet the sexy song of the owl with a smile. Come and be welcome.
I have spent the Deep working to uncover hidden parts of my past, of myself, and learning to stay in my conscious mind in the passion of reaction. I am positive I will eventually have emotional sobriety. And I have doubt about being able to stop emotional eating. I keep doing it despite the insights gained so far in my 12-step work. I really want this ability to choose something different in the moment. I really want it. I long to earn the magic of that freedom.
I give thanks for the challenges and the small steps I am making. I ask for guidance while I unravel my unconscious habits and core beliefs. I ask for wisdom, patience and self love. I ask to believe and have faith in my essential worthiness. Please Goddess, guide me into being able to nurture and sustain myself, parent myself and have ultimate faith in You to walk with me through this sacred work. Witness as I find solutions within myself, strengths I did not know I have and the promise of being balanced. Just as it is with the balance of light and dark within the Equinox.

I sit with my words. I thank the Elements, the Goddess, the owl and all that makes my life so worth living. I give thanks for the challenges, the pain and the symptoms of my life’s trajectory so far.

May all beings be happy, free and well. May everyone with privilege be conscious of it. May my fellow travelers find peace and insight. May the owl find the love of her life. May the Love of my life know she is well loved.

Sally Jeaux is an ordained Priestess of the Re-Formed Congregation of the Goddess. She also identifies as a Therapist, a Ritualist, a feminist and follower of The Wheel. As a seeker, she loves to learn about spiritual practices and study The Goddess and Her ways. Sally uses her creative energy to write liturgy, craft altars and make spiritually based art. Sally lives a blessed life, working the mysteries, with her delicious partner Boye in Austin, Texas.

Category: Spring Equinox 2019